Letters and Thoughts on Homosexuality

by Edward N. Haas



Book Details

Language : English
Publication Date : 16/01/2001

Format : Softcover
Dimensions : 5x8
Page Count : 264
ISBN : 9780759609839

About the Book

Suppose a man is in his sixties and has an I. Q. in the genius range. Suppose he has been subject to homosexual tendencies since he was four years old. Suppose those tendencies have been particularly intense. Suppose that--although they have often had (and still often have) their way with him--those homosexual tendencies have always been accompanied by an equally intense hunger to be free of them. Suppose that hunger has been so great, that his struggle to be free of his homosexual tendencies has always been the primary immediate goal in his life. Finally, suppose that--in the course of his sixty year heroic struggle to be free of those markedly intense, homosexual tendencies--he has spent countless hours searching inwardly and outwardly for the knowledge, which would allow him to at least control, if not purge, those homosexual tendencies. Would it not be logical to expect such an individual to be one of the world’s leading authorities on homosexuality?

Do you answer affirmatively? If you do, then it is quite right to say this: This is a book written by one of the world’s leading authorities on homosexuality. After all, its author is precisely the kind of individual described in the above paragraph.

Of course, it should be acknowledged that this is not a book in the strictest sense. That’s because the greater part, by far, of what follows is a series of letters written between the years of 1992 and this current year of 2000. The reader will have to judge for himself or herself whether that fact is a beneficial or detrimental one. Hopefully, it will be found to be wholly and entirely a beneficial one.

Up front, some readers should be warned: If you are a self-indulgent homosexual looking for someone to aid you in your efforts to convince yourself that there is nothing really harmful in your eager pursuit of homosexual "love," then this is not the place to look. On the other hand, if you are a self-restraining homosexual looking for someone to aid you in your efforts to find a reason to hope and to continue what perhaps strikes you as a futile flight from homosexual "love," then this is the place to look. It is also the place to look for all who are interested in hearing a leading authority describe his first-hand experiences regarding the nature and origins of homosexual desire.

About the Author

Born April 13, 1936, in New Orleans, Louisiana, the author graduated from Jesuit high school, in New Orleans, in 1953. A single fruitless semester studying music at Loyola University of the South in New Orleans was followed by almost two years of floundering in a sea of confusion, and the author then joined the U. S. Air Force on Dec. 7, 1955. Honorably discharged in April of 1960, the author underwent another two and a half years of floundering so severe, he came extremely close to a mental breakdown. In desperation, he gave away everything he owned and, for thirteen years, took to the life of a wandering hermit. In search of as much time and energy as possible for inner reflection upon self, God, and the nature and purpose of reality, he criss-crossed the United States on foot four times. At first, he lived off of whatever food and clothing he could beg; but, after learning how to live on a dollar a day or less, he turned to working at various monasteries in the winter time in exchange for the two to three hundred dollars required to feed and to clothe himself during the next spring, summer, and fall of walking. The monasteries also provided access to libraries in which he could read, and extract notes from, the great writings of the Catholic Church. In the course of that thirteen-year odyssey, there was a four year period during which he refused to speak to anyone (except on very rare occasions) and communicated only by means of written notes.

In August of 1975, the author’s father lost his mind, and the author’s siblings insisted he was the only one in the family with the time and ability to tend to their father in his hour of need. Thus, after thirteen years, the author’s preferred lifestyle came to an end. Dire poverty then gave way to economic independence, and total seclusion gave way to what little privacy can be enjoyed by bachelors who prefer to avoid partying and to stay home and--as much as possible--to bury themselves in as much reading and writing as the world around them will allow.

After his father’s death in 1981, the author took care of his mother until her death in 1996. In this book, the self-educated author of dozens of mostly unpublished books and pamphlets seeks to share with others the avenues of thought down which his mind was lead by thirteen years of heroically intense inner concentration followed by twenty-two years of moderately intense inner concentration.