Dear Ole, 2/11/70
You are by far the world’s most wonderful husband. I got two sweet letters from you today. You can never know how much your words of love mean to me…how they warm my insides and make me feel good all over. Sometimes I feel I don’t deserve such love…it’s hard to believe someone else could care so much for you. But then I remember how I feel about you…how much you mean to me…more than I can ever tell you. Isn’t it strange how much you really can care about someone else. When you have a love like ours you never do or think anything without considering the other person. I always have you in mind no matter what. When I’m making a decision I always stop to think what you would do. For instance I had mentioned to you about talking to Marty about getting married, etc. I told you that I had had an opportunity but I didn’t say anything…then I wrote to you and asked you what you thought. Before I had gotten your reply I had another opportunity to say something…the other night when we had dinner over at Mummy’s. But again, I kept my mouth shut. You know why? Because I knew that you would want me to and I really wanted to also, but the temptation was just a little appealing. Nonetheless you were absolutely right about the fact that I shouldn’t be nosing around in their business. This is just one example of how you influence my thoughts and actions even though you are not here. I feel like you are with me even though you’re not physically by my side.
But it’s really more than that…I feel like you are always right inside me. You are so much a part of me that nothing can ever separate us. You and all the many wonderful things that you are have made me a much better person. No one else could ever affect my life like you have…my love for you is so strong that it will carry me thru till the end, no matter what happens. So you see, darling, I am not really without you now…nor will I ever be…our love is much stronger than the time or distance that separates us. I love you so much darling…my heart is so full of that love right now and oh how I wish I could look into your eyes and tell you that…but I’ll just have to hope that you know already what I’m trying to tell you thru these feeble inadequate words.
Today our Matt is four months old and what a big fine boy he is. He weighed 16 lbs 5 and a half oz (gain of 1 lbs 3 oz from last month) and was 25 and a quarter inches long (that means that he has grown almost two inches since last month). He’s looking bigger all the time. The doctor said that he was just fine…perfectly healthy and normal. He has developed a diaper rash just within the last week which seemed to be improving since I had been treating it. But as it got better, it dried up and began to peel …almost like a sunburn. Dr. Podall said that his urine is strong and that it does burn him som