Journey Thru Love Part II

I can't! I can't! I tried, I forced it, I reallly can't! Pushing everyday for something I don't want Heart fighting for the single thing it believes in, while the mind and cruel reality sit and taunt. Heart weak as ever submerged in distraught. I'm at war and OH what a battle it is. Vietnam all over again and my heart is the terrorist. It won't let go, wont give up; fighting a hopeless fight and the mind's had enough. I'm finding that love and war are one in the same and my, in love heart, is the one to blame. No matter what bullet, bomb or grenade it gets hit by it gets back up, bruised and injured but refusing to die. On the battlefield alone against the whole world, defending what it believes to be its precious diamond pearl. I wish it would throw up the white flag because there's no need for this war to drag. This war needs to end. My heart and mind are constant casualities. Civil war is never beneficial, it weakens the whole being. My mind can't keep itself in love because the pain, the stress, its not worth it. My heart cant't let go, won't face reality because its love it cant live without and won't quit. It doesn't wanna take the L, it would be too much. It can't take the loss. It has to fight until the last millisecond, it must! This is life in its present state. A chaotic world of love and hate. A war within myself with a non-ending date.