Chapter 11: About Love
Pages 108-109
Again, I would like to tell a little story. As I have stated in the
early chapters, my stepfather was aggressively violent. When he asked a question, it would be good to have the right answer. As a child, I would get into a lot of trouble. My stepfather would always ask, “Why did you do that?” Most of the time my answer would be, “Because.” In anger he would say, “What do you mean because? In tears knowing what was going to happen to me, again I would reply, “Because.” This would result in a beating that would—most of the time—leave me black and blue with welts that would raise my skin. As a grown man, I wish I knew then what I know now. I surely would have told the truth rather than suffer those beatings. The fact is, I was as honest as I could be at the time. The best answer was, “Because,” since I did not know why I did the things I did. This is how Satan works. He will take the life of a child and mangle it, leaving the child with no ambition or desire to live. Do you know a child like that? Then Satan will take the mind of the father and tell him that he is justified in doing what he has done. Do you know a father like this? I do, he is writing this book. One more small story and I will get to my point.
As I have stated, I have two children, both being boys. They are now twenty and twenty-one years old. For a long time they would have nothing to do with me, and rightly so, I stole their Christmas presents. They would not see me for seven or eight years. My oldest son would be first. I made my amends to him and all seemed well. However, my youngest would have nothing to do with me. He was angry with me and thought I was worthless. After several attempts on my part to try to build a relationship with my son, he would not have it, so I left it alone. About three months ago, I get a phone call. It is my son, and he says to me, “Dad, I want to get to know you.” I remember after that call sitting in my chair in tears thanking God for what He had just done. Three weeks later, my son came to visit me for the weekend.
I decided this would be a good time to make my apologies. When we were alone, I began to apologize for the things I had done—for smashing into him in the car, for stealing his presents, and so on. Then he stops me mid-sentence and says, “Dad, I was not mad at you for those things. I was mad at you for beating up my brother.” I tell you, my heart dropped as I remembered what I had done and how I had justified it.
Chapter 11: About Love
Pages 127-128
In chapter nine I stated if a person could love God and all people, that person would have no need to go to heaven, that heaven would come to that person. What I meant in that statement is this: I am aware of God in me. There are days when I look out on this earth, at all the beauty that He has created, and as I look, He shares my eyes with me, and I am aware of Him. In harmony, we share this body. In my heart, I know I have found what my soul has been in search of. I have found my creator, my father. In His house are many mansions. Search yourself over with eyes that love, and you too shall find Him, waiting with arms open, ready to receive you. Of all the places to look, the kingdom of God is within.
I believe the final stage of a miracle from God is for man to receive and then acknowledge the miracle—to look beyond what men might think and speak the truth from the heart. That is what I have done in this book; I have spoken the truth from my heart, as God has put it there. I expect people will oppose what I have written. Others will challenge it. Please do, the only true way to prove me wrong is to try to prove me right. Love God and all people, and see what happens! Love in its true form (spiritual) bridges a gap, which can take a human being from a physical belief into a spiritual reality. Although there are many roads to love, (faith and hope) once there, love is the only vessel that can travel the distance to a man’s heart. It is there that we find God, and it is then that we become aware of our at oneness with God. As I have become aware of God in the literal sense, I have been struck dumb. There is no physical explanation as to what has happened to me. It is beyond understanding, yet worth believing. As spiritual truth is revealed, a humbleness that is coupled with joy, peace, and an overall sense of wellbeing is constant.
In scripture, John 14:20-23, Jesus states, “At that day you will know that I am in the father and you in me, and I in you. He who has my commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my father, and I will love him and manifest myself in him. Judas not Iscariot said to him, ‘Lord how is that you will manifest yourself to us, and not the world?’ Jesus answered and said to him, ‘If anyone loves me, he will keep my word; and my father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.’”