Who's Loving Me?
One Woman's Journey to Understanding What Self-Preservation and Self-Love Mean
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Boy, I was proud to stand up to her the way I did. My chest stuck out like the lion who is the king of his jungle! A quick blow to the chest knocked that pride out of me. The continuous blows flew by like bats in the night; I felt them, but I couldn’t see them. I raised my hands and screamed in frustration and pain and then began to fight back! I rose above her and looked down, my heart stopped! I saw a red haired, high yellow complexioned little girl with two pigtails in a dirty dress with ripped bobby socks and a red bloody face! Her screams were ear piercing! The child wanted her mother and her father. She wanted love, she wanted her parents alive, and she wanted that aunt to stop abusing her. I saw my mother as a child on that floor, and I ran away as if I had walked up on some horrific crime scene. I could not believe that I had I hit my mom. What was I suppose to do? Keep allowing her to abuse me? How in the heaven do I go about asking the Lord for forgiveness? I have always forgiven her until today. What changed? What made me click? I started to cry! I looked up to the ceiling as if I could see right through it into the heavens. I begged the Lord to forgive me and to touch my mom’s heart to forgive me as well. I begged for a night where we would not fight like two inmates who were out to kill each other because one had disrespected the other. I wasn’t ready for that type of rumble. I knew she would sweep me clean like a dust-covered floor. There wouldn’t be a fight, only a funeral.
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Yulonda was very proud to say how blessed her life was. Blessed in the fact that she was married to a great man, had three beautiful children, and a house to call home. Seemingly nothing in the world could go wrong, until her luggage from her past started falling out of her closet. Coming into her twenty-fourth year of life: feelings of hopelessness, depression, and rage had settled into her spirit. Drenched in terror, and shadowed by fear she starts to reflect upon her life to find reasons for her sudden change in behavior. Was it the abuse that she endured growing up by her own mother? Maybe it was the issues regarding her lack of self-love, self-esteem, or self-confidence? Her life suddenly comes to a halt when she contemplates suicide. What was the breaking point that almost drove her into the river? She now faces the question of when she would be able to make it back to her family, after she places herself in a mental institution for an evaluation. How could she save the only thing that mattered to her-her family? Readers will love to pack up and travel along with Yulonda in her quest of finding her true self-identity. Who's Loving Me is a story of one woman's journey to understanding what self-preservation and self-love mean. Yulonda's story is definitely one that cannot be missed.
About the Author
Yulonda Brown is a native of St. Louis, Missouri. She resides with her husband of nine years Chad, and her children Chanda, Marcia, and Chad Jr. She is also the mother of an English Mastiff named Sir Oliver. In her spare time Yulonda loves mentoring the young women of today encouraging them to become strong minded, confident, and successful women of the future. She also involves herself in monthly meetings with women that focus on the power of self-love, self-preservation, and sisterhood within the community.
Traveling and giving motivational/inspirational speeches is also one of many tasks on her agenda. She is also the founder of the Page Turning Divas Bookclub. A club where women from all walks of life discuss the "book of the month," and issues that evolve around SELF-LOVE, SELF-RESPECT, and SELF-PRESERVATION. "In our quest to become exceptional wives, mothers, and career women, let us not forget ourselves!" This is the mottoYulonda can be heard saying the most.
Yulonda has a dream to open an outreach/resource center for young women that offer a variety of classes and seminars. The seminars would offer advice on becoming independent, completing high school and obtaining a college degree, financial advice/help, and an array of other services to help young women blossom into productive women of the future. Re-inventing the love of "sister hood" is a very heartfelt dream of Yulondas'. Currently, she is working as a Technical Assistant for the Lab Support department at St. John's Mercy Medical Center in St. Louis. She is currently seeking a degree in Communications.
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