Along
with his contemplation of a God was his fascination and borderline obsession,
with science and science-fiction. What was fascinating for me while reading his
journal was that in the 1950’s, 60’s and the start of the 70’s, the literature
that was done on science of that time made Joseph fantasize of the what ifs. In that
era, science fiction, the what ifs, and factual
science were just a few years apart.
The
fascination with his writings for me truly began when I realized that most of
my father’s dreams and ideas of the future had come true. They were so innocent
at the time of his writings that they reflected a naivety in society that has
been lost today. Some of his other
innocent ideas that fascinated me were discovering DNA and walking on the moon,
even though we had just put a man into space.
Little did he know that we would walk on the moon and discover the
genetic code of our DNA giving us the ability to clone a human being. Ironically,
the birth control pill was just being introduced as a method of population
control.
Something
I find not fascinating but horrifying are the
conflicts that humans have been enduring, which were brought on
themselves. One of the biggest conflicts
concerns moral issues. Society and the
moral code that make govern it are constantly changing today just as they were
in the past. I personally believe they
change with each new generation and it’s hard for the generations before to
understand the moral codes of the new.
My father wrote of a decaying society because of changing morals during
his time, yet he believed it was going to be saved by science and its
advancements. In the world today morals
are once again ready to change with my generation. Our conflicts are now constant and seem like
they will never change.
Our
wars have changed, our science is common place and we have come to the point of
utmost decadence in American society.
This could become our downfall unless our morals change. If we do not speak out or allow ourselves to
change, then our decadence will destroy us.
I
think the most horrifying thing that I got from these writings on world chaos
is that most of the conflicts my father had seen erupt in the late 50’s until
the 70’s are still going on. The United States has thrown itself into the middle of many of these
conflicts, not looking within its own bubble to see its own discord.
Within
his journal, there are many other ideas, fantasies and daydreams that are
written for us to see the simplicity of how things were. In the 50’s and 60’s people still daydreamed
of the what ifs and whys. Today those
simple childhood ideas no longer exist for people because of the advancement in
science. The childlike daydreams in
Joseph’s journal are comforting to read knowing that, at one time, humanity was
less complex and the people were more simple. They also allow us to see how quickly things
became complex, thus creating the chaotic world we live in today. This happened especially after the Korean and
Viet Nam Wars and the assassinations of John F. Kennedy and Martin Luther King
Jr.
To
escape from his inner turbulence and the turbulence rising in the world around
him, Joseph would write; something he had done since he was a child. Included in this book are his short stories. Some of them are dark, a lot cynical, and
most are very bizarre.
Unfortunately
he never published these stories. I’m
not sure why and I’ll never know. I
personally believe he numbed himself a little too much with the alcohol that
eventually caused his death.
Fortunately, somewhere along the way I picked up my father’s love of
writing and to my surprise our thoughts are almost identical with the exception
of our beliefs in a God.
Sadly
he was never able to find that God he was looking for. The one that was staring
back at him every time he looked into the mirror. The one he opened my eyes to.