I took my time walking back to class, anything to avoid the
glares I was gonna get. I felt like a
spectacle, like I was show and tell for the day. Too many people were going to have too many
questions now, questions I wasn’t sure I could answer. I knew I told Chachi that I would be strong
but I didn’t need this. It would still
have been a lot easier for me to handle my problems by myself, one on one, with
anyone who had the guts to ask.
The way my parents decided to handle this just created
confusion as opposed to understanding.
How are sixth graders supposed to comprehend a little boy doing
something for the sake of loyalty to his religious beliefs that appears to be
so abnormal? They can’t be expected to,
and they simply would not be able to understand. Hell I didn’t even know what I
understood! My parents’ generation
probably thought they understood our dark world (that of young Sikh boys). They may be able to know it and perceive it,
but they can’t relate to it. They can
sympathize but not empathize. They could
not take on my pain no matter how hard they tried. They could not adopt the feelings of a young
boy living in a world that is totally foreign to them! This boy had to live it on his own. He had to learn how to live in this American
society, for it was this society that will inescapably envelop his life. Everything he knew was learned through red,
white, and blue vision. As blasphemous
as this may sound, I had a handicap. The
general public could not understand me in the same way they could not
understand a mentally or physically challenged person. So they learned to treat me like a handicap. Man
do I ever have a headache.
*
I made it through half the day before it all started.
“Hey camel, let me see your turban!” someone screamed from
down the hall.
“We don’t want no towel headed camels in our school!” Sounded like Ron.
“Let’s get the towel head, let’s beat the bunhead, get the
turban!” Yeah, it was Ron. I started to run through the hall but it was
pretty crowded. I kept bumping into people losing all of my books and binders
along the way. It was between lunch
periods. I could hear what sounded like
four or five guys comin’ after me shoutin,’ “Where’s your mommy now towelhead!”
I turned a corner, swung around a few lockers, slipped and
fell. As I was trying to get up, Ron
grabbed the ball of hair on my head and started to drag me down the hall. I kicked, I screamed for him to stop, but I
think it just egged him on. It felt like
he was going to pull all my hair right out of my head. I began to cry because the pain was just
excruciating. He must have dragged me
through a couple of hallways. The
cleaning crew must have been happy. Ron
was basically using me as a mop! We
stopped right in front of a section of lockers occupied by a bunch of
girls. Ron stopped, let my head fall and
hit the ground, and took off running.
I laid there, crying, staring at the ceiling, hoping for a
miracle. My hair was all over the
place. My clothes were covered with
dust. I was waiting for Guru Gobind
Singh, our glorious tenth prophet to show up and help me, to save me. He didn’t come. Instead, a bunch of girls huddled over me and
laughed. They just laughed and
pointed. I couldn’t tell who they were
as the tears swelled up in my eyes. I
could only smell the various perfumes and scents they all had on. I remember thinking how pleasant they
smelled, kinda like a department store.
But I knew that they were pointing and laughing. As I was lying there in complete disarray, my
thoughts then drifted to my father. I
wondered if anything like this had ever happened to him. Had he ever had his turban knocked off? Had he ever been dragged around a school by
the hair on his head? What would he
do? What could he do? How would he feel?
“Get out of the way,” a deep voice shouted. “What the hell are all of you laughing
at? Move damnit! This shit ain’t funny!” It was Wendal shouting. I could not see him, but I could tell it was
his voice. My head was pounding and I
had been tearing pretty hard so I really could not figure out what was going
on. Wendal picked me up off the ground,
picked up the white handkerchief that covered my hair, and starting walking me
to the office. Everyone pretty much ran
away when Wendal came. I imagine he must
have looked like a war hero, carrying a fellow wounded soldier to safety.