I was sitting under the shade of an orange tree in the back yard of the house, when a bundle of
thoughts hit me all at once. I had wasted a big chunk of my life chasing rainbows, which became
more elusive by the day. My dream, instead of turning into a concrete possibility, became more
abstract, more obscure all the time. I had wasted my resources, both material and spiritual, I had
squandered my health, whatever good health I had, in an unnecessary series of adventures. I had
played with the laws of sanity themselves.
Now, a few threads of grey appeared over my temples, I realized I was no longer very young, and
I had not accomplished anything significant before my own eyes, since I didn't care for anyone
else's opinion on the matter. But I had nothiÆ where.' I knew she could not be more than 16
years old, but instead of feeling intimidated by her young age, I rather thought of the fact that I
had never made love to a girl of such young age. I did not stay on driving in the direction of my
hotel, I didn't think it wise to take her there. She knew I was not intimidated by her age, I made a
complete turn and drove towards Beverly Hills, we left the strip behind us as Sunset turned darker
and darker, then I asked her her name, 'Marcia.' She answered without interest. I pulled off at
something that looked like either a private street, or a very long driveway. I parked the car and
turned the engine and the beams off. Then, I reached for Marcia's lips with mine. They touched,
but she didn't have an emotional response, her lips were tense and cold, I withdrew my lips away
from hers, turned on the ignition, made a left on Sunset and drove back to the strip. I held her
hand in mine as I drove, but there was no conversation at all. I took her back to the same corner
where I had picked her up. When I stopped the car I told her, 'go talk to your boyfriend.' She
squeezed my hand tight, got out of the car, just before I left I turned my head to see her, she
smiled and waved good bye. I thought to myself, 'I have never been with a women against her
own will.' Finally, I drove back to my hotel.
Hollywood 3. I walked out of the hotel for my last night in Hollywood. It was about 10:30 p.m.
and it was a cool night, ideal for a stroll after dinner, as I was walking, about 15 paces behind me
another man also strolled slowly, quietly, enjoying a cigarette. I was walking slower than him, so
very soon, we were walking side by side. He greeted me: 'Nice evening for a walk, isn't it?' 'I
know,' I said, 'it's a crime to be enclosed by four walls on a night like this.' As he pulled a pack
of cigarettes out of his pocket, the man said, 'Australian cigarettes, want one?' 'Sure.' I said,
and took one and lit it up myself, but right away I wondered about how uncommon was to meet a
man as nice and open as this in the place I was. We kept on walking side by side from there on
and he asked me, 'are you from around here?' I hesitated to respond at first, but I said, 'you can
say that, but now, I'm staying at the Hyatt hotel for a couple of days.' Then, he inquired, 'are
you just taking a walk, or are you going some place?' I told him in an embarrassed tone, 'I paid
for my hotel stay in advance, but as far as it goes, I'm broke. I spent all the cash I brought with
me and no one wants to honor my checks, anywhere. I think it has something to do with my
bank's charter or something like that. I went to several banks in Hollywood to try and get my
checks cashed, but they all rejected them. So right now, I'm just taking a walk, but if I had it my
way, I would be walking straight into that place right across the street.' I pointed at the exact
location with my index finer. 'That's strange,' said the man, 'I just arrived here from Australia
and a friend of mine told me about this place. In fact, that's where I'm going now. You are
invited to come, I'll take care of the drinks.' Somehow, I couldn't help being suspicious of the
man, he was just being too nice to me, without even knowing me. But I reflected, that if I had
wanted safety and security, I should have stayed in my hotel room, watching television. After an
obvious hesitation, I told him, 'yes, I accept, thanks. Are you Australian?' He said, 'yes, of
course.'
An easy, relaxed, semi-indifferent atmosphere pervaded in the place. At first, we sat the bar but
later, my new found friend and I moved to a table in a good location, a few fine ladies scattered
here and there decorated the area, but soon, more and more people began to shower in. The
conversation between my new found friend and myself didn't reach beyond weather level. The
music wasn't too loud, and to add to the relative elegance of the locale, now numerous young
women lighted up the place with their