Black Rock
I see hurt has its inward claws within, running trying to find light
When darkness' shadow blinds your sight.
Loving him more you've lost the will to fight.
Getting into this ring daily, no means of escape.
Eyes closed, hands cuffed, mouth taped.
Your rainbow has linings of gray.
You're on a merry-go-round of pain, at the end of each heartbreaking day.
There's no need for a doctor or priest.
Your mind is made up…hearts' chambers entwined to this unloving
selfish beast.
Tears from its ocean of hurt, chained in darkness, no light of being released.
The doors are shut, happiness and clouds of joy have ceased.
Foolishly dreaming he'll someday hold only me.
Momentarily steams of peace.
Your days of holding hands walking along the beach is as close as the North to the East.
You make yourself believe a lie; my prayers God will answer.
I signed the contract of my soul, being his lifetime private dancer.
Ocean black, waves thick, and deadly.
Angels rejoicing. your diagnosis…removable cancer.
Leave it be, he's the man I love.
Eyes open, mind clear, body beaten with a sand filled sock.
Windows open doors unlocked.
The love I have for him is anchored to the bottom of maybe's dock.
A chance for him to someday truly love me, and release the hitting sands'
Within the stitches of this hurtful sock.
My bruises are deeper than the waters, with arms fragile and weak.
It's hits I try to block.
I don't know…holding on, maybe something tragic happened to me as a child,
I'm in shock?
I do love him, 2 bullets…1 soul…one gun.
Calmly cocked.
Before the sun rises into infinity, from this life we'll be blocked.
I don't know what you see, nor am I starring at the minute hand on my life' clock.
I'm ok, he's mines…not your
Black Rock
Broken Pebble’s
I gave you laughter and clouds of hope for us.
Trying to break your chambers’ walls of distrust.
Holding onto yesteryears hurt and situations you refused to discuss.
Like a well your smiles of fading copper turned to decaying rust.
I was determined to give you mountains of love.
Your heart entwined with decades of lies and all the bad things they placed
In you not allowing good to enter.
Praying God break these unbreakable walls.
My love for you pours from its hopeful waterfalls.
I wish there were a magic potion.
Your hurt is deeper than combined ocean’s .
I shower you with fresh bouquets of flowers several times a day.
I call you and send notes saying how beautiful you are.
When someone makes you sad, I will be your kleenex for every tear.
When you feel cold and lonely, I will be your blanket with no expectations.
A genie in your presence, not trapped in a bottle.
Things go wrong, prayers of peace for your mind I will ask God.
Broken pebbles I gave you laughter in clouds of hope for us,
When anger open its door, I will be your mat to step on and kick and punching bag.
When the world hits you, I will stand in front and receive.
If the doctor says you need an organ, I will give you mine.
If I’m not a match, I promise you an organ I will find.
Happiness for you, I will give with every raindrop,
Standing alone knowing you deserve all the joy they took from your beautiful smiles ,
You can have mines.
If your arms are too weary for good things, I will give you mines to hold all you think you were not worthy.
When darkness will not let you see the garden, I worked for seasons for you, I will give you my eyes.
Beautiful petals should be waterfalls of peace when the sun goes down and when it rises.
The path of no blackened eyes, broken arms, no view of God’s uplifting blue skies, my feet are yours.
Closed doors of simple pleasures in life, my hands I give to you, please open.
Birds singing and the music of peaceful angelic choir’s, take my ears and listen.
I want love to cover you like the clouds, and shadows of beauty beyond the waterfalls of life to be the air you breathe.
Sweet honeysuckle ‘ and gardenia’s the aromas of waking with no fear of being hurt anymore.
I have given myself to you completely, within the winds of joy I am free.
Knowing in my loving arms you don’t want to be.
I wasn’t your knight and shinning armor, but the one who was infected with your misery.
My darling love to prove my undying love, years of hurt in your broken heart, I give you mines that’s filled with only true love for its destined donee.
Maybe someday this truth you will see.
Closed doors to hurt, an a second chance of being loved.
I love you, the stone that I once was is now beautiful...Broken pebble’s