Visions Of Strength

I have always been an artist with positive visions from as far back as I can remember, however, I believe my true positive outlook and inner strength came at a time when I least expected it, I wasn’t even aware of it at the time it happened or that I even needed any additional inner strength.  I have always tried to find the positive aspects of everything in life no matter what the challenge may be.  This is in respect to absolutely anything and everything whether it be from health issues, setting personal goals to achieve, financial woes and goals, personal well-being, relationships, challenges of any sorts and just day to day circumstances that may occur, and not in any particular order.

I had taken a journey at the age of 25 and traveled to one of the places on our planet that I had always dreamed of visiting, the Amazon basin, and what a historical moment that was for me in my life.  While standing amongst what felt like the center of the universe, a place where all living things must have been created, I felt an inner energy that fueled my soul so deeply that when I left the Amazon I felt as though I could conquer the world!  An amazing and unforgettable spiritual journey that one would have to experience on their own to truly understand the power I felt within myself while I was there.  I realized how miniature we really are in this universe when surrounded by such magnificent beauty, everything surrounding me in the Amazon was on such a grand scale to which I could not compare and seemed much larger than life it’s self.  Little was I aware during that moment of my life that I was going to need that fuel for myself upon my return home later that year.

During this time in my life everything seemed to be falling into place for my career and my personal future in general.  Every aspect of my life was running so smoothly and then suddenly came to an abrupt halt.  I felt as though I was frozen in time.  You’ll understand that feeling when you see the image in this collection titled “Frozen In Time”.  There was no direction for me and I felt all alone as if I were the only one on this planet who was left to fend for her self.  I had no incentive to move forward and nothing to motivate myself.  I knew that I couldn’t turn anything back to the way it was yesterday, so the only direction I could head into was a positive one, to keep moving forward and to try to make a better change for my future, whatever my future was going to amount to.  There was so much uncertainty.  Suddenly I felt this amazing energy force that I had recently experienced that had changed me as a whole individual and suddenly I realized why I had experienced it.  It wasn’t about helping others the way I had always done before, it was all about helping myself and using that inner strength to overcome this life challenge.  My attitude began to change dramatically about myself, who I am as an individual, what I could do for myself and how I could change the way I was feeling.  I had to focus on absolutely no one else at that time and concentrate on making this inner strength working for me and to my fullest advantage.  I needed every bit of inner strength I could grasp onto at this time in my life.  I realized this gifted tool was only for me to use and I was the only one who had the advantage of using it.  My entire soul felt as though it had weakened.  I needed to strengthen my inner self again so I began focusing on my inner energy and what a powerful and useful tool it had become.