Lost and Lived In

by Michelle Ray Prellz



Book Details

Language : English
Publication Date : 5/28/2023

Format : Hardcover
Dimensions : 6x9
Page Count : 156
ISBN : 9798823008327
Format : Softcover
Dimensions : 6x9
Page Count : 156
ISBN : 9798823008310
Format : E-Book
Dimensions : N/A
Page Count : 156
ISBN : 9798823008303

About the Book

This memoir started as my personal journal full of desperation to make sense of what I was going through. I began writing as depression and OCD/anxiety made home of my mind. In my attempts to cope, I also developed anorexia, alcoholism, and trauma from sexual assaults. For about ten years, I lost myself to these struggles. A couple of relapses and time spent in treatment began the difficult road to recovery. As I started to understand the complex web of mental illness inside me, I gained the words I was searching for to build a much-needed bridge. Mental illness can touch anyone, even the most untouchable, seemingly normal lives. Although we don’t all experience mental illness in the exact same ways, unfortunately, it’s often still a familiar darkness that’s misunderstood by the rest of the world. I expanded my writing into a book that could build the bridge of understanding, conversations, support, and hope from loved ones to those struggling. This is the full tour inside my mind as I experienced the darkest times of my life. It’s not a glorified drama of my struggles. It’s the raw, most honest, and unfiltered version of those years, my time in treatment, and a realistically messy recovery. I hope to be a voice for many, a reference for loved ones, and a glimpse of the light for everybody involved. It does get better, and it’s worth the fight. *Trigger warnings are included at the beginning of each difficult topic.*

About the Author

Michelle was born and raised in Columbus, Ohio. She attended the University of Cincinnati where she got her Bachelor’s degree in Psychology. She works with individuals who have autism or other intellectual and developmental disabilities from all ages. She began working in this field during college, and does the same work in Florida. She and her now husband, Noah, moved to Orlando after graduating college together and now live in a house with their cat, Crunchy. It took years and two times in treatment before she found the words to make sense of mental illness and allow others to understand. Her writing became the platform in which she communicated the darkest parts of her life to loved ones. After sharing her journal entries with family and treatment staff, she was encouraged to share it with the rest of the world. This book is how she made sense of the unexplainable and intangible.