My book tells my personal story in fiction form. I was abused by my husband. I loved him, forgave him, and trusted him each time that I went back to him. For outsiders looking in, many can not understand the stock home syndrome that a woman lives through. We as women are dependent on our abusers and are scared to leave. This book explains the honeymoon phases. They are not always bad to us. When it's good it's great. When it gets bad it's horrifying. We loose sight of what normal is. We lose our self respect, dignity, and strength. We lose our support systems such as family or friends outside of the relationship. We are alone, scared, and depressed. I went back one too many times and it ended in tragedy. But, I did survive. It is years later and I can finally face it and talk about it. This story is to help other abused women. I can relate to the cycles and the exhaustion that go along with them. This book is to tell other women I have been there, I understand, and there is hope.