Tribulation

I have only been alive for eighteen years. I was five when I learned I was to die at eighteen. I have been alive for eighteen years. I am nearing my nineteenth. Over the years, I have noticed certain behaviour. I am overly paranoid, subject to delusional thoughts and ideations, and remove myself from perceivable realities. I was to die at eighteen years old. I knew this nearly all my life. I am nearing my nineteenth year upon this earth. I was to die at eighteen. I didn’t. I have never been more disappointed in my entire f#@king life.