Metamorphosis—The Faithful Journey

Part I: Metamorphosis ~ The Faithful Journey

Chapter 1: The Incident – Burning in a Deep Hole

July 10, 1997: I went through a time tunnel in my death experience.

I remember the words my friend Susan wrote about me when I was ‘unconscious’. What were the words trying to tell me? In what seemed ten minutes, what was left of ‘me’ was ‘who I was on the inside’, and nothing else. My sense of Spirit was all I had and, yet, it was everything I needed.

The Visionary: To Louise Morell by Susan Prengel 1990.

She receives messages directly from Spirit –

that flow through her direct connection to the world beyond.

She passes the messages and sometimes the meanings on….

She knows not the full extent of her gifts and is best connected to the triangle.

With time, the messages form a path, connecting the one to the other to form maps in reality: they chart the way for others to follow.

Her messages come in different forms – now letters, now colors and shapes, fragrances, now words. Always the connection is there at will…..In and out of channel effortlessly.

A window clear to the world beyond, connecting form to thought and thought to form.

The bridge is delicate and is connected more strongly to the other world of Spirit than to the world of form.

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Someday, something may completely over take you and you won’t know what to do.

You can face a day when suddenly your entire life changes. Who are you, really?

July 10, 1997 was an especially hot and humid day in South Central Texas. I had been working on a restoration project in the Parks ……. I looked up at the noonday sun, and saw a bird passing through the illumination. I could not make out the details - just its outline in the brilliant rays streaming all around it ….. a crow it seemed but no color – just a white outline in the sky, against the unrelenting summer Texas heat.

I was extremely hot, almost dizzy. We only had two hours to finish our project. We were on a deadline ….. an event was planned in the park and the project had to be completed. I took a sip of water out of my water bottle, which was in our truck….. I wiped the perspiration, or perhaps it was just the heat, off my brow and walked back to see how the work was being completed…

I was so hot; I felt like I could not breathe. Inside I was counting the minutes until 3:00 pm. That was when we were to be off the project. Besides, I had to teach that night too…………..

I made it to class but I felt weak, almost spinning and disorganized. I had the most terrible headache I had ever experienced. It felt like a blinding band around my forehead. I did not want to tell my class, but they noticed my unsteadiness. They told me to go home and they would be fine. I felt sorry as I did not want to let them down but I could not concentrate. I tried to speak but the words would not come and the pain was great. So I accepted their generous suggestion and kind concern and left for home.

I don’t know how I drove home down the interstate, but I made it up the stairs to my apartment. It was another hot and humid Texas night. The day time temperature was 94 and the humidity was 93 (I did not know it at the time, but it was 138 degrees heat index).

I weakly opened my car door to go inside ….. The night air had not changed much from the day time …... It was so hot and thick…… When I opened the door to my apartment’s cool air, it was all I could do to get to my bed. My whole body felt like lead. My cat Toby jumped up next to me as I lay down on my bed. I fell into a deep, deep sleep.

July 11, 1997 am I did not realize it the second I opened my eyes the next morning, but that moment marked the beginning of many years of recovery from a massive heat stroke. The moment I raised my head off the pillow, I saw blood which had come out of my right ear. I knew what had happened. I could hardly move. I turned over on my back and stared at the white textured ceiling…..Everything felt like it was in slow motion…my life slipping behind me.

Credit:

Lyrics by Eminem: Album: 8 Mile Soundtrack (2002); Song: Lose Yourself

http://www.lyricsondemand.com/soundtracks/0/8milelyrics/loseyourselflyrics.html

“Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

The soul’s escaping, through this hole that it’s gaping

Success is my only option, failure’s not ….”

I woke up again. My cat, Toby, would not leave my side. I looked at him and looked back at the ceiling. I turned to my left side and grabbed the phone off the night stand to call in ‘sick’ to work. The morning just blended into the afternoon. I pulled myself up and stumbled myself to the car and drove to the nearby walk-in clinic. I was very weak with tremors…. I could not stay wide awake for more than two hours. My normally good blood pressure, read dangerously high. I was diagnosed with heat injury/probable heat stroke and sent home to rest and drink water. The discharge instructions were: if I did not improve to go to the hospital. The staff at the clinic knew I had no insurance and sent me home.

I think I slept a week away. The heat overtook me…. leaving internal damages I would not understand or recover fully from, for many years.… Where do I go? Who can help me? I need to touch the Face of God.

Information: “Heat kills by pushing the human body beyond its limits. 80% of people who suffer a massive heat stroke die right away or within a year of the incident. ….. Near fatal classical heat stroke is associated with multi organ dysfunction. A high mortality rate was observed during acute hospitalization and at 1 year. In addition, substantial functional impairment at discharge persisted 1 year. The degree of functional disability correlated highly with survival at 1 year.” http://www.fema.gov, 2002

Information: Austin Texas Weather Service Climatological Report: 07-10-97 Temperature 94; Humidity 92, Heat Index 138 degrees F; heat stroke likely. http://www.nws.noaa.gov/climate/index.php?wfo=EWX

Information: Various Sports Medicine Sources: Water Replacement Rate in high temperature and high humidity, @ 1 gallon an hour.

Information: Effects of this heat stroke – Lost Blood Pressure Control for over 4 years, then in certain temperatures and stressors; Lost temperature control - could not go out more than 15 minutes over 60 degrees without passing out for 1.5 years; Immune System Damage; Difficulty Breathing, EMF (electromagnetic frequency) sensitivities; Chemical sensitivities: Loss of muscle mass and bone density due to inactivity; need for rest and response to shock symptoms, lost hair; inability to eat solid food for 6 months, difficulty in absorbing nutrition over two years, loss of appetite and nausea for over 5 years; Loss of activity: restart awake time at 2 hours a day, slept 17 hours a day for 6 months, awake for 8 hours a day after 12 months; Loss of sense of memory for many ‘ordinary’ life events.

The choice to live or die lies in the Soul.