By His Grace

In September, 2011, I was in a deep sleep and I was awakened when I heard a voice say, “Sandy wake-up and pray now. You are under a great spiritual attack.” I began praying in the spirit and continued until my spirit within me was satisfied. At the time I thought everyone was asleep, but it was then that I heard a voice in the living room. I got very quiet and listened. It was my husband, Ben, praying in the living room. I was first shocked dismayed and then became enraged at what I heard him saying, but I said nothing. My husband was praying for Yahvah to give him another wife. He said he wanted me to die because I did not do what he wanted and he felt he could do better with someone new. I stood there as if frozen in time. I was in a state of shock and unbelief. I turned around and went to my son’s bedroom door, woke him up and asked him to please pray with me. I told Phillip what I had overheard. At the time, I found it difficult to talk because I was grasping for air as if a spiritual force had its hands around my neck. Phillip laid his hands on me and began praying in Yahvah’s spiritual language and I was once again able to breathe. We prayed until our spirit and the Ruach Hakodesh poured down on us, filling my bedroom with Yahvah’s “Glory Cloud.” Suddenly, we heard Ben yelling. He had heard us praying and yelled out asking why I was listening to him, and that I had no right to listen to what he was praying. I yelled back Luke 6:45 “45 The good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and the evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth that which is evil: for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.” Then I told Ben how I was awakened by Yahvah to pray because dark forces were at work. I told Ben he was wrong for praying the way he did and that Yahvah was not at all pleased with him. He continued to yell and scream that his prayers were between him and Yahvah and I had no right to listen. Here, again that Jezebel spirit tried to deflect blame away from him onto me as though there was nothing wrong with the content of Ben’s prayers! On Sunday, May 27, 2012, the feast of Shavot/Pentecost my son, Phillip, told me that, Ben had been for a new wife as early as August 2008. Not coincidentally, this was right around the time I took ill and received my pacemaker. Several times Ben had insisted Phillip pray with him in agreement about my demise. Phillip told me he stood his ground and told his father that he would never do that and that he would only pray for Yahvah to heal me. Believers/Christians must always watch what we say and how we pray, for the tongue stirs up the spirit realm to bring into fruition the prayers that proceed out of each of our mouths, good or evil. We don’t even have to be praying, we can just speak it. Our words reach into the spirit realm and draw happenings from the spirit realm into the natural. Ben was a powerful prayer warrior and he chose to use that gift for evil. Evil words will come to fruit in Yahvahshua’s name just as good words will bring forth life. But what Ben meant for bad, Yahvah turned it around for good. Yahvah will not allow evil prayers to go out without consequences because Yahvah is not mocked. What you sow, you will reap. If you pray evil, you will reap evil. Ben’s pain wracked body is evidence of that. Now I will tell you how my son, Bennie Jr. died. In November of 2008, Bennie Jr. called asking his dad for money to help him turn back on his electricity, but Ben refused. I told Ben we need to help him. I said when people come to you asking for help and you can help them and you do not, you are in the wrong. Ben still refused. Then Ben tried to justify his decision saying Bennie Jr. was not living right and if he did not get his life on the right track he would not be with us for long. Ben kept saying Yahvah would take him if he didn’t straighten out and he spoke other words that were nothing but curses over our son. I told Ben, again, that he could not speak any word or scriptures that promoted the demise of our son. But he would not stop. Phillip and I began to pray the opposite of everything Ben was speaking. Then, six months later, to the day, Ben again spoke evil words of death over our eldest son. Bennie Jr. died that very day, killed in car accident. Ben was devastated. He was never the same again mentally or physically. I cannot tell you the pain I endured over the loss of my child and the guilt over thinking I did not pray hard enough to overcome Ben’s curses. Anyone who has lost a child knows the depth of that pain but through Yahvah grace and mercy I’m learning to live with it. But on top of my grief, Ben launched an all out war on Phillip and me. Remember, Jezebel can do no wrong. It was extremely obvious that Ben’s words had directly affected our son’s life. Instead of throwing himself at my feet in grief, he launched an all out war against Phillip and me. This war also intensified against anyone who denied his wishes. Matthew 12: 36 “36 And I say unto you, that every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.”