Sunny and 74

‘Why did we have to keep meeting here? Couldn’t we just all convene from the motel and leave from there? Well, I guess it doesn’t matter since it’s almost over…just one more time after this one and I’m done. Forever done. No one will ever find me after this, well, after that. I hope I am relieved when it’s all over as I hope I am. I should be after all of this…I should have just gotten it over all in that first year. I don’t know, I guess it made sense back then to do it this way, I guess. Of course I really did get sick and I couldn’t have helped or done anything to fix that. And I just know he really didn’t believe me; but I’ve wasted enough time about all of that. I just need to get all of this over. Why do I always get this way when I’m in here and not when I get out of here? I hope he likes these new boots? Probably won’t even notice again. At least I can dress myself now- not like the first two times when he kept making me change. How ridiculous was that! Did it really matter? No it didn’t, no it really didn’t. I think these boots are very appropriate. Right now they look as perfect as the day I walked out of Lord and Taylor with them that first day: I doubt that’s going to last. Did I bring my slippers? Did I? I wonder who’s going to be with me this time? I’ve never had any problems working with Vogel; or Truman, but Truman has to be done by now, doesn’t he? Yes, I can handle another one of these with Vogel. Vogel is so easy. How many more does he have to do? I cannot believe I’ve never remembered to ask him. I sure hope he received my email about that gown or whatever it is or was! I am not going to put up with getting that type of rash again. I shouldn’t have to! No I shouldn’t, I really shouldn’t! Why is it always so cold in here? It can be perfectly fine outside and once I get in here it’s freezing- and I never warm up no matter what month it is once I get here, never!