Wounded Yet Not Destroyed

I gasped for air until I couldn’t any longer. He left me unconscious on the floor with no regard for my life. When I regained consciousness every bone in my body ached like a thousand ton train has hit me. I could barely move my legs but managed to grab hold of the phone. I called Victoria; when she answered the phone she couldn’t understand me only a whisper was heard. I felt like my cheekbone was broken. By the time Victoria got there he was long gone. She was speechless when she walked in and saw me lying there on the floor.

She took me by my hand and tried to lift me up but she couldn’t; she was not strong enough to manage me by herself. I realized how badly I was beaten when I couldn’t stand. My body is bloody and afflicted with cuts and bruises; it feels like I’m having a heart attack, my heart is pounding so hard. Inside me is a hollowness that I can’t explain; it feels like a knife had cut through my heart. Victoria exclaimed, “I have to do something.” After which she headed towards the bathroom; then she came back with a wet cloth. She cleaned me up then placed an ice pack on the bruises, she dressed me in my nightgown then laid me on the blanket. She stayed by my side until the paramedics arrived. When they showed up I was unconscious; they rushed me to the hospital to keep me alive.

As I laid there, I saw my life flash before my eyes. I saw a bright light appear in front of me; it was so bright I couldn’t look at it because of its radiance. For the first time since my sister’s death I saw her, she looked so peaceful and happy and from her appearance I knew she was in a better place. She said, “It’s not time for you to join me yet. You must return the Lord has work for you to do on earth. After you have completed the task a head of you, you will join me.”  Overwhelmed with joy I stretched my hand forward to Julia, she exclaimed, “Julene my dear sister I love you.”

“Julia you are so beautiful please don’t leave me.”

Sis I love you but I must go now. Rest in the peace of the Lord.”

“I love you too, bye.”

When I regained consciousness I looked up and saw Victoria. There she was praying, she has always been someone that I can talk to. Victoria is a true Christian, she motivates me to return to the Lord, she listens to me and prays for me but has never once judged me. She told me that the doctors had pronounced me dead. I told her about my experience in the light with my sister Julia and she rejoiced with thanksgiving praise to the Lord.

Right from the beginning, I knew that something was wrong with Fabrizio because he was just too perfect. My intuition was silenced by my hunger for love. Later in our relationship, I realized that I wasn’t happy but I wasn’t able to identify the source because my judgment was clouded with the gifts and sweetness he whispered in my ears. I’ve always kept the hope alive that he wouldn’t hurt me or abuse me. If he could do this to me then I don’t put anything pass anyone.