middle of nowhere

Ego Tripping

She was here

until her footsteps disappeared

leaving me to think it over

while she wipes her tears away

tears she never asked for

and didn’t deserve

there was a time

in my mind

where the sun rose and set

at my command

where the birds needed permission to sing

and rain fell only to cool me off

and I acted on it

like the king of kings

costing me my most precious thing

my most valued treasure

now dim is my reality

while she experiences pleasure

loneliness and misery

are easier to find

than a good woman

and my chance is gone

because I couldn’t change

no...I wouldn’t change

because to me

I wasn’t to blame

now the sun rises and sets

on another man

the birds sing songs

to their lasting love

and rain falls only to draw them closer

another excuse to hold each other

while I see the end in front of me

it came faster than I thought it would

because pain cuts deeper than this loaded gun

and my heart and mind are something I can’t run from

but I can shut them off

with one squeeze

and watery eyes tightly shut