Bitter/Sweet 2

I LEFT QUINTEN’S HOUSE SMILING AND FEELING SO HIGH OFF HIS LOVE.  YES, I DID SAY HIS LOVE.  THAT BOY LOVES ME, DIARY!  I KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME.  I COULD FEEL IT.  WHEN WE KISSED GOODNIGHT, IT LASTED A LONG TIME.  I DON’T KNOW IF I’M GOING TO HAVE DINNER WITH HIS PARENTS, BUT I NEED TO REALLY THINK ABOUT MY ANSWER I’M GOING TO GIVE TO HIM.  ANYWAY, WHEN I GOT HOME, GUESS WHO WAS LYING IN MY BED READING A MAGAZINE?  ANTONIO.

I CLOSED MY BEDROOM DOOR LOOKING AT ANTONIO.  ANTONIO SAT UP IN THE BED LOOKING AT ME.
ANTONIO:  I CALLED YOU EXACTLY TWELVE TIMES TONIGHT.  EACH TIME I CALLED YOU I ASKED WHERE YOU WERE, AND EACH TIME YOU SAID YOU WERE HERE, AT HOME IN YOUR ROOM.  YOU WANT TO GUESS HOW LONG I’VE BEEN HERE?
I SHOOK MY HEAD FEELING NUMB ALL OVER.
ANTONIO:  GO AHEAD, BABY.  TAKE A WILD GUESS.
I DROPPED MY BOOKBAG TRYING TO THINK FAST.
KELINA:  TWO HOURS?
ANTONIO:  TRY AGAIN.  I’VE BEEN HERE SINCE FIVE.  I WENT OUT SOUTH AND THEN CAME BACK HERE, BEFORE YOU COULD ACCUSE ME OF DOING ANYTHING.
HE SMILED.
KELINA:  OH.
ANTONIO:  SIMPLE QUESTION.  WHERE WERE YOU?
KELINA:  TISHA’S HOUSE.
ANTONIO:  OH, BEFORE YOU START NAMING GIRLS RANDOMLY, YOU SHOULD KNOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS CALLED WHILE I WAS HERE.
I STARED AT THE FLOOR.
ANTONIO:  MAYBE WE SHOULD TRY THAT QUESTION ONE MORE TIME.  I’M TRYING TO STAY CALM, BABY, BUT YOU’RE REALLY NOT MAKING IT EASY FOR ME.  WHERE WERE YOU?
KELINA:  OKAY, I LIED.  I WASN’T WITH TISHA.
ANTONIO:  NAW, QUIT PLAYING.  YOU WERE LYING?
I LOOKED AT HIM.
ANTONIO:  SHIT, I THOUGHT YOU WERE TELLING THE TRUTH.  YOU KNOW WHAT?  FORGET THE QUESTION.  LOCK YOUR DOOR AND COME OVER HERE.
I LOCKED THE DOOR AND WALKED SLOWLY TO HIM.  I SAT ON THE BED NEXT TO HIM FEELING NERVOUS.  ANTONIO LOOKED AT ME.
ANTONIO:  ARE YOU SCARED?
KELINA:  NO.
I LOOKED AT ANTONIO.  HE KISSED ME ROUGHLY.
ANTONIO:  CAN I GET SOME?
I NODDED SLOWLY.
KELINA:  IT’S YOURS, RIGHT?
ANTONIO:  WELL, WE’RE ABOUT TO FIND THAT OUT.

DIARY, I SHOULD HAVE TOLD HIM TO JUST LEAVE MY HOUSE ALTOGETHER, BUT I FELT THAT IT WAS RIGHT TO JUST GIVE HIM SOME.  HE DIDN’T DO IT ALL ROUGH, LIKE I THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO DO.  HE ACTUALLY TOOK HIS TIME AND MADE ME FEEL GOOD.  DIARY, HE’S STILL ASLEEP RIGHT NOW.  I DON’T KNOW.  TODAY WAS SUCH A CLOSE CALL.  IT’S A GOOD THING I’M NOT HAVING SEX WITH QUINTEN, HUH?