We are born for Joy and Happiness!
We are born to enjoy merrily.
We are born to sing and dance here on Earth!
by Indios, Amazon Indigenous
Facing another world
Men started to prepare to make tea for the ceremony in the afternoon on 31st. The plants were put at the center of Marocca. From the time Shamans arrived in our village, I was feeling an energy on my arms. When I sat beside of the tea leaves, I felt energy again. I heard they were the best tea that Paje brought for Alex. Later I experienced the meaning of “the best”. It also meant to be strongest.
This time I really reflected myself and regretted about my attitude and mind preparation before drinking the tea. I should have remembered that drinking it would put our life on risks and each experience would be very precious.
In the evening on 31st, I felt hungry. We should not have eaten before drinking the tea. I was waiting to drink but lost my patience, and ate a little food. I should not have done that.
Many men prepared the tea by taking time. I had already received a permission to drink it, maybe thanks to Alex. But during the preparation, one man was explaining to me very hard. I think he meant that there was another kind of the tea, and I could drink it in Manaus.
The tea had the strongest hallucinogenic effect. Women were not allowed to drink because it was too powerful. People could die or get crazy from taking it. Even some Indian men were afraid of taking it.
At 7:00 p.m. the Paje started to serve a tea. Estebo put it into a small cup, said “Yumiko”, and gave it to me.
The moment I drank, I regretted. I thought it would start to work in about one hour, but it started right after I drank! It was very powerful. I even could not keep sitting down on a long wooden chair in Marocca. I lied down there quickly. Small girls beside of me told me to raise up, but I couldn’t. I refused them strongly. The girls looked surprised and noticed something was wrong was with me. They never imagined what kind of feelings I had.
The feeling was indescribable. When I closed my eyes, I started to see a huge screen in front of me looked expanding unlimitedly. It was like a huge kaleidoscope! And full of beautiful princesses were dancing in tune with the melody of flute of Indios in Marocca! They were colorful and beautiful, but strong. When I was closing my eyes, I felt I would be absorbed and swallowed in! Oh, no......I opened my eyes, and felt tremendous energy inside of Marocca. People’s laughter, dancing, and songs, and the energy came to me directly and strongly! The way how I felt became totally different! It was too intense and I could not stand any more!
Somebody noticed something was wrong with me. Estebo made me hold a thick pipe of smoke in my mouth. I inhaled fully and deeply. I did very deeply. I could not stand the strong energy there and dashed outside of Marocca.
Now the world was totally different! The scenery I got used to was totally different! The sky, land, trees, and everything looked different. I felt everything was connected. I felt myself different too. I felt I were so big. I could feel various things intensely! I was feeling trees and land floating. I was feeling people as the movement of energy.
“Scary! So scary! Oh, no!!” I totally came to a different world. What shall I do? Can I go back to the original place? I really wished I could put the clock back! I wished it were a dream and I could wake up! However, it did not change. It was real. I came to a totally different place! I felt solitude and scared! What a intense feeling! Please help!! Help!
I was amazed Indios were taking this strong drink! Oh, no......I was regretting.
When I saw people, I could not see the faces. Instead, I could see the energy lines on their faces. But I felt I could tell what they were thinking.
It was past 7:00 p.m. When I looked up the sky, I could see things like lights at two places and it seemed to be inviting me. I tried not to see them. I looked down and kept saying, “I cannot go yet! I canno