A Living Nightmare

ALIVE AND ALONE

Alive and Alone!  There is nothing for me to do or

to look forward too.  If P.S. 81 showed no kind of

human youth passing grade then how did so many of

my friends leave and learn.

Alive and Alone!  I reason with myself thought-out

P.S. 36 years.  If not for my own reasons what made me

wish to stand tall tike so many teachers who I give

such headache too.

Alive and Alone!  If P.S. 81 P.S. 36, 53, 370, Queens

Career Development and so many street people did

nothing for me/us as young blacks why is it only me

that has been seen in a good way. I gave most of the

problems I knew this cause I stay down more then up.

Did I have a hidden problem that only I could have

solved.

*******

LOCK DOWN

My own ways was always the ways of the straight jacket and my own little room.

I live in my own jail and is not living in fear of anyone but myself and that bitch call love.

I got my own illness that is deeper than a knife cut.  I’ve got my own key to the lock but its to much of a coward to show up.

I got my own graveyard and I am ready to sleep at all time just to be and feel safe.

I am not smile for happiness but for death and misery they have showed me the way and I will follow.

P.S.

Is there hope

For me ?

Nope!