Soon, I received a call from the
secretary at the skin clinic with an appointment date and time. I wanted to
know if this was the soonest date available and she said, yes. I told her I’ll
be there. The day came that I had to be there to hear the results of the
analyses and the doctor allowed me to sit down before he began to talk. He said
young man I have bad news for you and I don’t know how to put it. I said doc
don’t worry about how to put it just let me know what is this that has me
fearing and in bondage. He said the common name for it is Lupus but the
scientific name is called Erythematosis. I asked him
to write the name and help me pronounce this thing because I wanted to take it
to God and I wanted to tell Him the right name and conditions. The fear had
subsided somewhat and I was getting angered over this condition taking
advantage of my flesh and I wanted it out of my body ASAP. But the
dermatologist said that there was no cure for this disease and he’s afraid that
I will eventually be overcome by it. I asked what do you mean by overcome and
he responded, “You’re gonna die.”
Before I knew it I said no doctor
I know a man that will say otherwise. He said it is good that you have some
faith because that is what you need to live with this disease. He said after my
last appointment, he had talked to others of his trade and profession with
knowledge of this disease and all said that there is no specific treatment or
cure. They did recommend several salves and drugs to help with the pain and
skin condition when it moves into its latent stage which for me was pretty
imminent. He told me that he wanted to help in anyway he can and to see me
through this ordeal, if possible. His secretary gave me another appointment
date a month away and I accepted it and stated to him, I’ll be back but I’ll be
healed when I return for this appointment. I didn’t know whether to cry or pray
but I held my composure until I got back into my car and headed home. I did cry
some tears along the way knowing I had to break the news to my wife, children,
relatives, friends and church members. All sort of thoughts were running
through my mind and what I should do. But I resorted to the fact that it’s time
my faith come alive or I must accept death and don’t worry about it. I accepted
the former thought that my faith must produce the victory and that’s it. I
reminded myself of what I had said to the dermatologist about being healed and
God is able to do what I needed him to do.
In spite of the terrible news and the
mountain which has blocked my life from going forward, I began to read the Word
of God with more zeal and sincerity. I looked up the disease several times to
see if I had any symptoms of the latent stage but the encyclopedia didn’t
distinguish the latent stage symptoms. I said to myself it really didn’t
matter. I found this scripture on prayer that moves mountain and I began to
study it day in and day out. I said studied it and not read it. I meditated on
it. And again, I studied it to see the pattern or the deliverance for me. God
eventually opened my understanding after I had wrestled with it awhile and I
broke out into a praise and rejoicing. I had my answer, I said, I have my
answer, thanks God, thank you. Now it was time to put faith into action for
myself. I had been teaching the Holy Bible to others for approximately seven
years and inspiring them to exercise faith during their conditions and
situations. But now it was the teacher’s time. All those that I had counseled
about faith, healing, believing and claiming it, etc., began to cross my mind.
Even doubt crept in but I immediately rebuked it. I said, “It was all or
nothing, I’m gonna be healed or die.” And dying was
not the option. I thought I needed to hear myself say that so that I can get
the boost or surge of energy to empower my spirit man the more. I had all the
information I needed to go to God with and the prayer I needed to pray which
will grant the answer. For that same passage of scripture (Mark 11:24) said that therefore I say unto you,
what things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe
that ye receive them and ye shall have them. This was a huge mountain, one that
had its weight upon me and trying to crush me day by day. I had made up in my
mind I would not give in to it but somehow make it move to yonder place and out
of my life. I needed to use the right “Power of the Prayer Arsenal” to shatter,
remove, climb and/or destroy this mountain. Now I can empathize with those who
have had great sicknesses and diseases to strike their bodies and the doctors
give you no help. One thing about this situation in my life was that I was not
going to be self pitied. I needed every ounce of faith that I had and not an
iota to lose.