FOREWORD
I’ve refused. I’ve told the world, the universe, that I
refuse to see it again – the video that cost me my friends and my freedom. Every two years, I’m approached by some class,
professor or news organization wanting to honor me for my work covering the
siege of those damn Ists. And when asked if they can show it, talk
about it, interview me about it, I’ve refused.
I walked out of five award presentations when it was flashed up on the
frame. I hold my anger and never go
back.
The memories are still too
painful even 50 years later. I now know
why veterans refuse to talk about the serious combat they’ve been in. I wish I could forget like them, to bury that
dreadful experience and turn it into a blank.
Maybe my mind works differently
than the rest. I can’t forget. Even today, I can still vividly see the death
of my comrades, the ruptured hulls and the tearing of flesh as if it was
yesterday. Maybe it’s what the Baggers
did to me. That special talent they gave
me that doesn’t let the creatures of the Enth into my
mind to cleanse my soul.
But I’ve relented. Now I must view that damn video, minute by
minute, hour by hour, for I have said yes.
A young protégé has asked for an interview and I will tell all. All, including those scenes never put into
the story, for he found a copy from where it laid hidden these last fifty
years. I thought they were all destroyed
but he located the agencies’ backup that had been stored offsite from the main
building. It had not been destroyed by
the fire but lay hidden and forgotten since the agency ceased to exist by
orders of the Sixth Legion. Why the
Sixth had overlooked it when they destroyed the other recordings that had been
far better hidden, I will never know.
The backup still contained all my original recordings from the very
beginning of the Ists’ attack, not the short edited
version that fragmented the Commonwealth.
These recordings have never been seen before. I will even allow him to interview me about
my experiences in captivity, during and after the siege when I was deprived of
my photobuttons.
The full story has never been told for the universe had demanded proof,
just not the hearsay of one lone reporter.
Now the hearsay will be corroborated.