Have you ever watched and heard a person die, while
blood oozed from his mouth and from bullet holes in his chest, as he gasped his
final painful breaths through a perforated windpipe?
When I’m lying in the dark in bed at night with my
eyes closed, and there is nothing to distract me, I can see the red blood
flowing, like hot lava, and can hear his hopeless raspy gasps. I can even smell the gun smoke and my own
sweat if I concentrate hard enough.
If you haven’t witnessed such a horrifying event
yourself, was there some other excruciating experience which shattered your
youthful innocence and catapulted you into the full reality of adulthood?
My life-altering episode occurred just two months
ago, and I have yet to reach my nineteenth birthday.
It all began when I arrived in Atlanta to begin my
college experience. I was full of
excitement and anticipation and anxious to start this next phase of my
life. I expected to be challenged by
many things as a beginning freshman, but had no way of foreseeing that, before
the end of my second semester, I would be drawn into a succession of murders,
culminating in the gruesome death which still haunts me.
My first class, History of Western Civilization,
began at ten o’clock on a hot and humid Wednesday morning in late August. I took two wrong turns before finding the
classroom, but managed to slide into a seat just before Dr. James Chambers
entered. He looked like a model from a
Ralph Lauren commercial with his wavy brown hair and angular face. He was wearing a lightweight blue blazer
which fit perfectly over a white golf shirt and well-pressed khaki pants. He appeared to be a little over six feet and
stood confidently as he neatly printed his name, e-mail address, phone number,
office location and office hours on the white board at the front of the room.
There seemed to be about forty students in the
class. Sunlight streamed in through the
bank of large windows on my left, creating the illusion of warmth in the
colorless classroom. The concrete block
walls were painted beige and the tile floor was a milk-chocolate brown. A world map and a map of the Middle East
were pulled down from their holders like old-fashioned window shades and
covered parts of the white board. The
room certainly wouldn’t have won any interior design awards, but I liked the
feel of it.
Professor Chambers strode closer to the students in
the front row, smiled warmly and paused.
The soft sounds of murmuring voices and shuffling backpacks ceased in
anticipation of his next move.