Frank swayed
slightly, an attempt to keep his balance.
“You’re drunk!”
Aaron said with disgust. Their attention was not on him. They hadn’t heard Tony
on the stairs. Halfway down he stopped, not wanting to eavesdrop, but not
wanting to acknowledge their quarrel, either. Frank was backing towards the
stairwell, trying to find something to steady himself.
“Yes, I am,
aren’t I?” Frank’s hand found the generous curve of the staircase. Without
looking up, he leaned against it and said sarcastically, “Not like your other
sanctimonious son...” He smiled slightly, then frowned. “Isn’t that true,
father? You want me to be more like Tony...good and perfect and kind to
animals--I’m kind to animals, father--I swerved to miss a deer--we do have deer
out here, you know! Yes, my beautiful Lamborghini is...in the ditch at the
fork, I think. I’ll...have to send someone out to get it....” He straightened,
looking straight into his father’s eyes. Aaron hadn’t looked up either, too
intent on his own anger. “I’m not so drunk, father, that I don’t know you
despise me, that not a day goes by you don’t wish I were more like him--like
your precious Antoinne--your perfect son!” In the surfacing of his emotion the
drunkenness seemed to evaporate. His eyes locked into those of his father.
“Well, I’m not him, father. I’m me, Franklin
Hart Whitney--not some image of perfection you wish me to be--and I’ll not
spend another day under this roof hearing what Tony would do and what Tony
wouldn’t do--I’m sick of him and his perfection--I’m sick of being compared to
him--your precious golden son! You can have him and his nickel-plated saintly
image! I’m getting out--gladly--and the two of you can go straight to hell!”
He turned to
ascend the stairs, and looked straight into his brother’s eyes.
*****
“I don’t want this, Frank. I’m not against
you, and I never have been.”
“You sanctimonious hypocrite!” Frank
snarled. “Everything and everyone in this
household revolves around you and your bright star--even Beth lives in your
shadow! And don’t tell me you haven’t been well aware of it all these
years--using your status to your own advantage! There has never been any
consideration in this household for anyone but you!” His voice changed. His
cigarette glowed fiercely in the darkness as he inhaled. “It’s much too late
for vindication. I’ve lived in hell too many years because of you.” The voice
dropped to an even deadlier tone: “Walk softly, little brother...Take
care...take much care.” The cigarette glow suddenly vanished, pinched out.
“Make no mistake! I don’t like you and I
never have. I am capable of much more than you comprehend!” He suddenly
vanished into the labyrinth of the night.
His last words
left Antoinne Whitney cold.
*****
She laughed
outright. “For what? Daddy, I’ve been trying and not succeeding to get Tony in
bed with me since I was twelve years old!” She laughed so hard the tears came
to her face.
Shocked, Peter
exclaimed, “Lori--do you know what you’re saying?”
“Yes, Daddy.
Yes, I’m still a virgin--but not because I
want to be. Don’t think all the boys don’t try – even now they do. You know
why? Tony’s moral. He’s good. But everybody knows he’s a religious fanatic who
doesn’t make one move unless his God says so. So what is he after, Daddy? How
do I handle this one? You’ve never told me anything about God – he’s never been
a part of our lives! You talk about obsessions, Daddy. Tony isn’t obsessed with
me! He’s obsessed with this God of his, and I don’t know how to handle that! I
could deal with another woman, but – God? How do you handle something like a
God who doesn’t let people do what comes naturally?”
She was dealing
one shocking hand after another. He said, “Well, Lori...I don’t know anything
about God, either, but it seems to me you..can’t win this one. It seems to
me...you’d better break it off before one of you gets hurt, because it might be
you who gets hurt the worst. From
what I’ve heard and seen, people hooked on religion aren’t easily unhinged from
their God.” He paused, looking at his daughter as though seeing her for the
first time. “Surely he must know how
you feel. How do you handle that?”
“The same way I
handle everything else: I pretend, Daddy
– I pretend!!”
“My god”, Peter
exclaimed. “I can’t believe I’m hearing this! And you think when you marry, you
can drop the pretense? You honestly think you can continue fooling such a
brilliant young man with such an outrageous lie? Just to get what you want?” He
shook his head in disbelief. “This is a very dangerous game you’re playing,
young lady. What if this God strikes you down for toying with one of his? I’ve
heard he’s a very jealous God!”
“It hasn’t
happened yet,” she said. And I won’t let
it!