A Personal Prayer
I know that you are a Prince of Peace. I want you to be my Savior and Father. I want to know you personally. We say all of the time, "Lord, I want you to control my heart". Do we really mean that? I want you to control my life and mind and soul. We worry so much about what others think about us so we try to put on "airs" so we will be noticed. We spend so much time trying to talk proper, holding back all of the slang that we use -- trying to impress others. But Father, help me not to worry about what others think of me. Help me to have a closer walk with thee because I can’t impress you Father by putting on a false front. I have to be true with you. You know my heart. You are completely aware of my shortcomings. I could never hide anything from you. Teach me Father to be humble. I want a relationship with you like Adam and Eve had before sin entered in. I want to really learn how to pray to you Father. I want to learn how to talk to you. I want to know how to give my whole heart to you. I want to throw myself before you. What do you want me to do? How can I get to know you?
Help me Father to be like you. I know sometimes I am so short-patient with some of your children. I know that they are also your children. Give me the loving power I need. I want to ask you Jesus to give me an answer to this prayer. I don’t want to pray the same prayer that I pray morning and night but give me the knowledge to talk to you like you are my Father and I am your child. I feel sometimes that I am there to help other people whom I feel have a problem. It seems that I am always there to help them but when they are on their feet, they go on their way and I feel that I am left behind. Then I start feeling sorry for myself. Then good things, just wonderful blessings start coming to mind -- not only for me but for my family. These
are blessings that the Lord has bestowed upon me. If I took a measuring stick and tried to measure all of the blessings that the Lord has done for me through the years, I can’t begin to figure out how long it would be. I start to smile and I pick myself up and I thank you. Please forgive me. Forgive me for doubting you.
I have always felt that you loved me but, sometimes in my heart, I need to be reassured Father that you are my Savior and I belong to you. I have decided that I will not let people rob me of my connection with you. When others do or say bad things to me, I find myself thinking over and over what I should have said or done to them. My mind becomes so clogged up with hate that I can’t hear my Father talking to me. So I am missing the closeness that we had. I can’t hear you tell me how much you love me so I am learning to approach your people just like you do. These are all your children and we have to learn to love everyone the same. Lord we take so much for granted like health, life and family. When we wake up in the morning, life is not promised to us. But, thank you Lord for waking me up and thank you Father for my family who is so large that we can’t all fit in just one house at one time. Please Father let me always remember how you put your arms of protection around us each and every day. But Father we worry about the color of our children’s skin, the type of hair they have, how smart they are -- instead of thinking of how perfect the Lord has made them and that He has given them to us.
Lord, please keep my mind from worrying about material things of this old world -- things that will not last, which fire or earthquake can destroy. Father, help me to store my treasure in heaven where no one can destroy it