For
most of the trip, my father was quiet.
He seemed to be in deep thought and kept his thoughts to himself. He was normally gregarious, but this time he
seemed depressed. He wanted to be left
alone. At one point, I wanted to ask him
about the weird, flat-topped geological elevation that formed conspicuously
above the desert floor. I was sure that
he could explain the cause of the odd formation, which looked like a mesa or a
butte. He had an interest in geology and
I knew he had the answer. But, I did not
ask him, because I was taught that it was impolite to disturb elders. So, I
decided to wait and before long I decided to wait and before long my father
turned to Tosh and me with a hand-rolled Bull Durham
cigarette in his hand and started to talk.
In
the past, he frequently talked about our future and goals and gave us advice
and guidance, but never about himself or about family affairs. This time, he spoke with deep emotion and
heated intensity, not holding anything back.
He was serious. He wanted us to
understand what was going on and what the future might hold for us. It was a lengthy monologue that had a lasting
effect on my outlook on life in general and on my view of myself as a
Japanese-American. Even to this day, I
can clearly remember his talk, maybe not the exact words, but essentially, he
said:
Toshikazu, Motomu, listen to
me well for I want you to remember this day, this moment, this talk I am going
to have with you. I want you to listen and pay attention because I do not
intend to say this again. Both of you
are still too young to fully understand what I am about to say, but I want you
to listen carefully and remember. Maybe,
one of these days, long after today, you will remember this day and recall what
I say here.
I have been thinking about our situation. It does not
look good. We are on our way to
Topaz. We do not know what lies ahead of
us, but we must be prepared.
When the war started, I was immediately classified as
an enemy alien, arrested by the FBI and taken to Oakland for interrogation.
They asked me many questions about my activities as a teacher and
community leader and what I would do if they released me. I told them, as a Christian, I believe in God
and will do what God wants me to do and that is to help my people, the Japanese
in my community, to endure this war peacefully and quietly and obey the orders
of the government. I told them that I
will not cause any trouble and that the welfare of my family and my community
comes first. America is my family’s country, and I would not do anything
that would hurt their country or endanger their welfare.
I told them the Japanese in America do not want to choose sides. They want to be left alone and live
peacefully and make no trouble. They
will do whatever the authorities tell them so that they can help win the
war. I told them we are not dangerous
people. We are peace-loving people and America is our home.
We have children here and we work hard for our children. It is for the children’s future that we stay
in America. Our children
are American citizens. They are loyal
Americans and they will fight for their country. The Issei will all
support their children. If the children
go to war, the Issei will stay home and pray for
them. We want them to fight honorably, courageously
and not bring shame to their family.
They must and will fight for America. I know
that. We have brought up our children to
love and respect America. After a short
while they released me and said go back to your community and tell the people
to stay calm and continue to work hard on the farm and help the war effort.
You, Toshikazu and Motomu,
are still too young to become soldiers, but you must do whatever is necessary
to help. The war may last a long time
and you may become old enough to join the Army.
When that time comes, you must go and fight for your country. That is your duty. A good samurai fights for honor, for home and
for family. That is the bushido
way.