The Power of Prayer

Have you ever questioned your life and the problems and situations in it? When I was growing up I was the youngest of three sisters. It seemed to be that they were allowed to get away with everything and anything I wasn’t that fortunate. Who could I seek to resolve this issue? I wasn’t an extremely spiritual child, however, deep down I knew that GOD had a great purpose in my life and this experience was only a setback to allow God to heal my brokenness! Life teaches us to despise brokenness. Broken things are worthless. Most of the time we go buy new and replace our broken things. We toss them. They are not worth the time and energy needed to repair the brokenness. Unfortunately, we do the same thing with people. It just takes too much time and energy to repair them. Unconsciously, we toss them away. We are too busy and important to take broken lives into the repair shop of our heart and begin the work of repairing. As I journeyed through my teenage years and young adult years, I was exposed to and curious about lots of thing. My first real experience was over twenty years ago when I entered into an unhealthy relationship. Sure, I was still young and impressionable and it was always popular to be in a relationship to receive affection and attention from another person, but I believed that this was the “ONE”, the one person whom I would spend the rest of my life with, and as unhealthy, painful, and dark and disappointing as it was, I was determined to stay in it, but for a while. My flesh believed that the pain I experienced in this relationship was alright, despite my fear, my sadness, and pain. I was broken and shattered, and, though I believed in a God who desired my healing, I wondered whether I would make it through the brokenness to a healed and whole self. Broken (adj) = Subdued totally; humbled: a broken spirit. I struggled to get out of this thing that had become a situation rather than a relationship (in my mind), which was very challenging. This was one of the hardest struggles of my life. I looked for assistance from another person but to no avail. No one could help me with my exit. However, I was addressed with more pain: I was informed of the lies, the cheating and more disappointments and this made me feel even worse. At this point, I started to question God. “God, where are you?” If you are truly present why won’t you answer me? I didn’t realize that God never left my side. The hole in my heart was for God to mend: through my tears and long nights I was still comforted. I continued to speak to God asking lots of questions and telling him all about my anger and my disappointments. God did answer. He wanted me to surrender and my healing could only happen through Him. I had an epiphany. God desires healing in all of our lives, no matter what we go through and how hard it seems to get out of hard situations. God has a bigger plan for all of our lives, our will is not our own – it is God’s. I also recognized how patient God was with me, when I saw the clear signs to exit out of this relationship and other things that were not healthy for me, His love continued to cover me and guide me. If I would just be patient with Him and myself, the hole in my heart could be mended.