James Stewart
Here is a shared portion of a data bank of issues faced with termagant malevolent unworthy authorities who have had a great influence in life. The issues in the Termination Grounds seem to be a grievance and complaint. The nature of keeping a person on their toes with distrust, concerns and complicating their life is also a check and balances system to keeping the person honest. These issues are the very topics that have kept me interested.
The authorities, administration, co workers and bosses mentioned within these pages have to be knowledgeable, intelligent, resourceful, and educated beyond any scope of awareness. The fact the issues continue to come, and the solutions are found shows a great potential in the people associated. The level of addressing issues as these have been noted, are a tribute to their potential.
The dynamics and emotional controls over this termination ground setting shows an emotional disturbance. I have taken a number of pages from a journal and expanded on them for documentation. The conspiracy indicates that there is a rift, and there are groups converging outside of the realm.
The powerful social force of public scrutiny had leveraged on this reformed rehabilitated criminal from 27 years.
The reputation and character are only support and defended by the advocate of life. The nemesis will clash to influence a regressed state as the exemplary behavior will stand with the advocacy to uphold a decent respect for everyone.
Here is that portion of the data back of a person that has not complained, grieved, or acted out of line. How does someone deal with the impunity, controlling and dominance of life? When it can be confused as the caring, understanding, and respect from others? Thus a clash where ideas leads to self persecution of the termination grounds!
My adolescent years of life ranged from 15 years old thru 17 years. The mess I caused in life from 27 years ago has come back to haunt me. It is a message that the behaviors, habits and actions of childhood will impact the adult when earning a living.
I have been through therapy, and I find medication to be a redeeming feature. I also have genetic traits that are included in my emotional problems. After years of therapy I have accomplished a BS in Accounting degree with excellent grades. I maintain a job within reasonable problems and tolerances. In addition, I sustain a life in due respect to the laws.
Respecting parents, bosses, and authorities is always helpful when they return their supporting trust. My personal sense of self-respecting trust is a great support. When social forces and public scrutiny leverage, the having self trust and faith will be the greatest advocate.
Substance abuse in my adolescence gave the decision Either continue to use drugs as a self-medication, or get professional help. The continued drug abuse only helped me to avoid bigger problems. Unemployment was a problem that was unavoidable.
In therapy, we worked through many of the problems.
I was able to concentrate, study, and sustain lines of reasoning.
A period of depression without the drugs evolved into something manageable.
An attempt to continue my education guided me to college.
I had to leave some friends behind, but graduated from college.
The maintaining of work has me associated with responsible, mature, educated, knowledgeable, intelligent and resourceful people. I fear being unprotected in society to fall prey to drugs. I must defend my emotional rights when threatened on this level.
For today, I am clean and, I hold a job.
A TRUSTED FRIEND TURNS TO BECOME AN AGGRESSIVE ADVERSARY
It is my vulnerable state to trust friends, and relationships. With them taking advantage of the trust to inflict insult and humiliation to then cause someone to retaliate on such an issue. The very trusted friends and relations feel my stature and respect to insult them. They are trusted and have my vulnerability open to their attack. They feel I am respected and dignified over them so they then attack me.
This points me in a vulnerable situation. Where they know my vulnerabilities and they know when I am susceptible. Now they are going to attack me and try to use those vulnerabilities against me.
They have access to this vulnerability, as now they are adversarial and competitive. These every nemesis and fighting people are fighting me and know my vulnerabilities. They were once my trusted lover, and friend who I shared my personal secrets. I have to defend and step in with my wit and protect myself. To defend those vulnerabilities or be subject to be exposure to having someone attack me when I am vulnerable.
This has happened before to bring me to ruin. I have to prevent, maintain, sustain, and endure to prevent these emotional attacks from driving me to the brink of ruin. They will attack, fight, and compete, as they know where I am week. They leverage and use this vulnerability against me to break me. They want to damage my respect to insult my integrity and to ruin that notoriety.
They attack me where I am susceptible and vulnerable. They have access as friends to that vulnerable susceptible aspect of my life. To now, be violating that trust and faith I have bestowed in them.
I first prevent the damage of the trust and friendship. The workers have to prevent others from taking advantage of their vulnerable nature. The conflict arises and surfaces where they felt they have to attack to break me down. I have to be ready.
I try to prevent this melt down of the friendship and relationship first. However, if it fails I have to be ready when the attack of the closest friends comes into being. Now I have to defend and put up my walls. I step in with my witty to defend and protect my feelings and physical well-being. To have me guarded against such an emotional and intellectual attack from a friend that knows everything about me. In my vulnerable, state where the friends know all my issues.
I need to be ready to face the mental and emotional attack on my reputation. I need to be able to stand in accordance with the laws of normal and prudent behavior. I assert my stance against them to defend and stand my ground under such vulnerable conditions.
They have now turned to be aggressive to have personal gains in mind. They have the intentions to bring me down so that they are respected and dignified over and above me. To have their opinions respected over my points of view. For them to stand to assault my character to be deemed righteous in their break up and vendetta against me
