Carlos A. Cook
This book is based on certain dreams in my life, that is to say, I would have a dream about something that left a mark on me and gave me such emotion to actually create a literal piece. How many times have we had dreams, such as a friend dying or a lover leaving, even though it may or may not have happened? Then a week or so later, fate steps in and takes this person out of our lives? Wow, is that karma or what?
Or, when we love someone so much that it hurts us so deep, when we are ignored or all of a sudden cheated on or had our heart broke, all because this person decided that it was best for them to move on and not tell us. Talk about extreme and emotional pain, right?
So, how do we handle that? I guess we could just say, forget it and move on, but everyone is not as strong as that. These types of people fret over that or cry and then what do they get in return, but someone who was a friend laughing at them, or someone spreading rumors about them? Paranoid, am I? That is the typical attitude today, that we have to live in a dog eat dog world, get them before they get us, and kick a man when he’s down mentality.
So, now is where we get into the “wishes” aspect. All of us whether we are well off or not have one time or another wished that we were someone else or that we were in another situation. Sometimes, we may even wish that special lover back into our lives even though they are married at the present or don’t love us anymore. It doesn’t matter who you are, whether rich, poor, big, or small have all wished to be someone or somewhere else, especially when the going gets tough. I have learned that God (or whatever deity you believe in) knows what’s best for us and will give us our needs, so in essence, we do receive our wishes in due time, according to his will.
I am hoping that anyone who reads this book will find something in it to help him or her cope with whatever is on their minds. For instance, if you want a lover back in your life and it will never happen, perhaps you may find something here to put your situation into perspective and realize that life will get better, certainly, it could be a lot worse. Also, I want to reiterate to never give up on your dreams, even though far-fetched or abnormal people make them seem, you can make anything happen for yourself, if you believe in yourself.
Carlos A. Cook was born March 11, 1972 in Detroit, Michigan. In
this book, we see him approaching middle age and realizing that things
will be the same, if there is no compromise. So, instead of trying to
come to even ground through arguing, he seems to be comfortable with
himself at this point in life. There are many instances where he
reflects back on earlier times to understand things of the present.
There were many new inspirations and experiences, much deeper now and
we see a new aspect of his life, that we may even attribute as dark or
dim. These inspirations include musicians Insane Clown Posse, Twiztid,
& ABK. As well as much subtle inspirations, like musicians,
Clay Aiken, All 4 One, & Tony Rich. One may never know what goes on
in the minds of another, but someday, he hopes that we all at least
respect everyone’s opinion, no matter how different or one sided they
may seem.
This book was completed in less than 2 years, because he had
inspirations that deep, to get him through the trials and tribulations
that come along in life, whether we want them to or not.
In The Mirror
Once in a lifetime, desires have asked me to call you, now.
Love is at hand, one last time, for your blessings, I bow.
I am beneath your reach, looking forward to fate.
Eager to love you tonight, your wanting loins await.
Savory tastes are spawning life, with each word I speak.
Unknown to my conscious heart, you are all I seek.
Fortunes tease me with riches of no worth.
To forget you forever, denying me, our time on earth.
I need to know that you will be by my side.
Watching and protecting our interests, where passions aren’t denied.
Reaching into the night, we will suffice our cares.
Loving each other in truth, depleted of our wares.
Truly, there is nothing I can add or take away.
To make me love you any less or lose you for a day.
My thoughts are with you daily, prayers of faith.
My worries are lost with love, an amorous wraith.
Why then, do I dream and cast my love asunder?
All my attention is diverted, to a bitter spell that I’m under.
Hopefully, I will lose nothing for our romantic trial.
Love is all too sweet and I am burned with denial.
What a fool I am but no more, I am only wiser.
I give you back your heart, that you hoard as a miser.
A traitor is in our midst, through your eyes, it’s clearer.
You stare her in the face, daily, in the mirror
Empty Words
Many memories have been lost, I’ve wished to hold you tightly.
Never to forsake you, giving all my love to you, nightly.
There were times I would watch you sleep, only to see your face.
You were so full of dreams, I didn’t deserve you, I had a place.
You loved me, that’s all I’ve ever wanted or needed.
Your encouragement was a godsend, with your confidence, I succeeded.
Days would pass, I cherished each and every kiss.
You challenged my intellect with awe, we professed eternal bliss.
In your past, you were used as a transitional belle.
It was then, I would love you dearly, protecting you well.
You didn’t deserve that, I was to take you away.
I wanted to give you a home, a loving place to stay.
For a while, we were happy, lovers, friends, mates.
Once day, you differed, no reason, opening heaven’s gates.
My angel was fleeing, you didn’t love me, I was lost.
Without you, I became incomplete with a great emotional cost.
Crying never brought you back, it only gave you a reason to cheer.
You were rid of me, I was your stepping stone, your fear.
Wishing, never made it true, that you would hold me.
My love became your resentment, you used it, to scold me.
Words have never described, how that made me feel.
I was filed away in your subconscious, trodden under heel.
You laughed, you smiled, I was your vengeful joke.
Now I am empty, as the loving words you spoke.
Wishes And Dreams
My journey has ended, it has been rewarding.
I’ve learned to love, my memories, the best recording.
The dawn brings me happiness, I see you at night.
You’re not physically here, but I see a future bright.
Time will reveal, if our departed love, was a mistake.
Love is real now, without you, my heart does ache.
I applaud your desire, to find a future of your own.
Your needs were goals, you had to achieve alone.
Years would provide me with confusion, you were never found.
I still love you and would cry to heaven, you never heard a sound.
I’m not so ignorant, to know, that you’ve married.
It’s been a learning experience, to bear the burden, I’ve carried.
My eyes are open to faith, God answers all prayer.
Even through his eyes, decisions don’t seem fair.
Nevertheless, I live with only half a heart.
You own the other half, a symbol of incomplete art.
I digress now, beating a dead horse to shame.
I will leave your life, hopefully you don’t forget my name.
I’m back in my utopia, humble and safe.
Where heartache is reality and love is my wraith.
I rest softly now, angels, sing me to sleep.
My accomplishments comfort me, even as I weep.
For now, nothing is worse than it seems.
My life is a continuous collage, of wishes and dreams.
