Amy Crandall
"Growth Hurts" is a memoir that accurately represents a personal and spiritual growth journey. It is a powerful book relaying a story of fear, courage, inspiration, and the ability to live a passionate and powerful existence despite overwhelming odds.
Amy Crandall is a successful business operator, entrepreneur, speaker, and coach. She has been writing published works since the age of nine. This book is the highlight of her career as an author, since it details her life.
So many times I cried myself to sleep, wondering how any “God” could allow a single soul to experience so much pain. How could a good God let me feel this way? How could a good God take away everything that meant anything to me, again, and again, and again? Would the pain ever stop? Maybe someday I would be able to have the strength to take my own life…until then, I could only look up to her because she did.
It wasn’t always that way. There was a time when life was good, when all I could do was smile. It was a time of pure optimism. I had the gift of vision, to see the world through magical eyes and find good in everything. For a while I recalled this innocence as being naïve. I could have called it anything I wanted to, but it still wouldn’t have stopped my longing for that time.
Where exactly is the innocence barrier shattered? When did I understand pain? Finances? Loss? When was it that I realized that a smile could no longer heal all wounds? When did my smiles turn to tears? When did the void take over?
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I was three…
Mom was crying. Eric was crying. I was crying. We were driving through the tunnels in California. I knew that it was over. We had said our last goodbyes to Daddy. There was no going back this time. I had just lost my father.
I felt abandoned. My dad had let us walk away. My stomach churned and my head ached from crying so hard. I bawled over a situation that I didn’t understand. My relationship with my father would never be the same. I learned that love wasn’t forever.
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