Pause for a moment to reflect on all that you hold to be true in your life. Now imagine the devastation of discovering that the vast majority of your beliefs have been a complex web of lies, concocted by your beloved husband in order to conceal his narcissistic double life. Walk with me as the sands shift and change and we dodge and weave our way through the waves of betrayal and a tumultuous vortex of emotions.
For most individuals, the insanity ends with a divorce, and the healing can begin. The stormy battle for my mind, body, soul, spirit—my very life—raged beyond comprehension. A mysterious, debilitating immune deficiency slowly threatened to consume me, and in its wake came a sense of overwhelming defeat.
Journey with me through the shifting sands as I strive to regain my identity, peace, joy and health by seeking the Lord’s guidance through His Word and embracing His divine grace and mercy: the turning point toward my total healing—against all odds!
Come with me and discover why I chose to share my story in anonymity. The stage is set….
~ Miriam Kelly ~
Due to writing in anonymity, there will be no text for this area.
Excerpt:
A few months later, after waiting and watching, I suggested a divorce. Brian smiled and said a divorce would be alright, but I would be required to leave the house. Brian spoke those calloused words with a flat affect and no emotion. Me? It was my home before I met or married him! He said he needed the house and the basement to run his (not ours!) business. I told him he was the one who would be required to leave. Brian said if I messed up his plans, he would see me dead. He meant it, and I knew it. His next words caused chills to run down my spine: “You have no idea who I am or with whom you are messing.” I had seen enough over the years to suspect illicit connections. I heard and felt the threat, and it was genuine.
With those words Brian showed he felt no love for me and ours
was a marriage of convenience for him. I seriously doubt Brian
was capable of love as he appeared to be a true narcissist in
that respect. Narcissists have only self-love and learn—by
observing others—how to display love, without feeling the true
emotion. Looking back, I see the signs more clearly.
Excerpt:
Life and people often are not how we perceive them. Sometimes, we prefer to turn a blind eye to the reality; maybe we are fearful, doubtful, naive, hurt, or threatened. I think in my case, I was all of the above. I possessed no hard evidence on Brian, except the fraudulent attempt of stock transfer, his strange behavior and odd occurrences, and my nagging fear and distrust. Whoever Brian was, he was more than proficient in covering his tracks. There were days when he was charming and personable and we appeared as a very content and happily married couple. Yet Brian’s often calloused disregard for my feelings and opinions and his threats and deceit kept me in constant turmoil. Even when things appeared to be going well, I had a never-ending sense of dread. What would Brian do next?