Chapter One
Frantically, I packed, not
knowing what to throw in the duffel bag - the one that was waiting patiently,
looking back at me from the once tranquil bed.
Not remembering what I had already packed, I caught a glimpse of my
hands. They were shaking like the leaves of the palm tree outside my
window. My face was flushed; my eyes
moist from tears. I could feel my heart pounding inside my chest. It was a task just to walk with legs so
wobbly, like I had borrowed them.
The worst call of my life had
come at five o’clock that morning. Bad news is never easy to accept. Devastating news stuns and shocks the heart
quiet for a split second. At first I was in disbelief, but knew full–well that
it was true. It only takes the brain a
second to contemplate the many avenues of doubt before understanding the brutal
reality of truth.
My brother broke down as he tried
his best to ease it to me. I knew he had bad news as soon as I answered the
phone and heard him say, “Joe--”. His voice was soft and low, almost
priest-like. It had the sound of total exhaustion. It was low, yet full of
pain.
It’s amazing how, with one word,
we are almost able to completely read someone’s thoughts, see their feelings
like a motion picture -- especially if they are loved ones.
I had never heard Jerry’s tone of
voice like that before. After all, he
was the husky, bigger brother - the one with the powerful, loud voice. I was the soft-spoken one, even before I
entered the seminary ten years ago.
I was the Catholic priest who
moved away, leaving everyone behind in Brooklyn. I had moved out to the small parish church of St. Augusta, on
Daufuskie Island, South Carolina, seven years earlier.
“Joe, I don’t know how to say
it--”
“Jerry, what is it?” I asked cautiously.
“There’s been an accident--”
It was then that he fell apart,
sobbing.
“Jerry, just take it slow,” I
said, calmly, in my most-soothing, fatherly voice. The voice I had used so many times before when tragedies had
struck someone. Always the one to
remain calm, I had no idea I would become unglued and broken down to my
inner-most emotional core.
“Joe,” he continued, clearly
sobbing. “It’s Melissa. It’s not
good. She-- She’s-- She’s gone!”